Anais Nin is a huge inspiration to me, and she has been for many years. I think I read her diaries for the first time when I was about 20. She had such a deep impact on me, and I felt so connected with her, and her sensitive, creative ways. So fragile, so strong, and so authentic.
Yesterday I picked up her diary again, because I needed some of her vibes. The first book covers the yrs 1931-1934.
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Ok, a month has passed since my last post! I just took a break, but didn't plan it to be this long. Sometimes life is enough in itself.
Since my last post I've ended my time in the intensive group therapy. Now I'm in the process of landing from having therapy 4 hours a day, three times a week, since June 20th. It's been intense. My last day was Thursday. I'm glad I'm done, but grateful for the time
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The way I perceive the term "normal" is that it involves numerous of people worldwide who struggle with showing their authentic nature. They find it challenging to follow their own inner drum. That is why I find "normal" to be a sad term, or reality if you like, to live life by.
We are all unique. Yet, too many people fear standing out in the crowd, so they try to sqeeze themselves into tiny boxes, roles, that contradicts their
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(This is one of my favorite zen stories.)
According to an ancient Sufi story, there once lived a king in a Middle Eastern land. The king was continuously torn between happiness and despondancy. The smallest things could make him really upset or give him an intense emotional reaction, so his happiness easily turned into disappointment and despair. One day the king got tired of himself and started seeking a way out.
He sent for a wiseman living in his kingdom.
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Renè Descartes claimed that our existence could be explained through COGITO ERGO SUM, "I think, therefore I am."
Mystics of today (as well as historic people like Siddharta Gautama , aka Buddha) prove Descartes' theory wrong. Our existence can't be explained just by our ability to think.
DUBITO ERGO COGITO, "I think, therefore I doubt", is a more accurate frase, yet not regarding our very existence. Why? We cannot rely on our thoughts. They often mislead us. Quite often we
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The human mind can be a very noisy place to be. All kinds of thoughts rambling around, bringing all kinds of emotions to the table. Some thoughts are loud, and others are subtle - like whispering voices that hardly are noticeable.
In a mind of chaos, where a lot is going on at the same time, there are some relevant thoughts, and many irrelevant ones.
Last night I took a step back from my mental chaos, and asked
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A diagnosis often gives people a certain image of a person, almost instantly. An image based on what they have heard and read about that particular "label." As with everything else, there are different degrees of "bipolars", as there is of people with ADHD, sport fanatics, and whatever else. No one is the same. I, for instance, have never had psychotic periods, which I've read can be a part of "bipolar minds."
I don't care about the diagnosis. Why?
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Dear Diary,
Sometimes I think I should make this blog a theme blog. To focus on one subject, and write solely around that topic. Yet, the thing is, I'm a very versatile person. I'm a little bit all over the place in my mind, also when it comes to interests. I have a mind full of frogs. They just jump around. So many different topics. Life is more than one side, or five. It seems to me that many
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I love this! My favorite author talking very inspiring on the topic of inspiration to get the writing in motion. I love what he says about how we cannot guide the wind - just act on inspiration.
It's also wonderful that he too needs to forget about checking facebook, mails etc to get going, haha!
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A saint who visited the river Ganges to take a bath, came across a group of family members who were shouting at each other in anger.
The saint turned to his diciples with a smile, "Why do people who are angry shout at each other?"
After a little while one diciple said, "Because we lose our calm. Then we shout.""But why do you shout when the other person is right next
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Dear Diary,
I've taken a step back from my writing projects to play around with words and writing games. For me, this is a way of easing off stress and straints I've put on myself for months. It's a way of cooling down pressure of performance, as well as finding my unique writing voice. I'm choosing a different approach to my love for the art of writing, and it feels good. Maybe I'll develop a sense of writing styles
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Dear Diary,
Last night I fully realized that I've been stressing a lot regarding my writing projects. Stress and creativity aren't compatible, you know.
Last summer I was in a very creative flow, and really had it going on creatively. What happened? I came across some tips from some published authors on the net. Especially one guy, who
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I studied Chinese Astrology many years ago, because I was curious on the subject. I'm not gonna write a lot about what I know about it, just give a few simple facts, before I move on to Dragon.
- The Chinese follow the Gregorian calendar. It's a lunisolar calendar, and one month follows one moon cycle, beginning at new moon.
- They operate with twelve different animals, one for each year in a cycle of twelve years.
- Animals are, and in this order: Rat,
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Dear Diary,
"Am I in group therapy because I'm insane?" This is a just question, but I laughed as I wrote it. What being "crazy" means is in the eye of the beholder. What perspective you choose to judge from, like with everything else.
Einstein, for instance, was considered being crazy in his time, but after his death he has
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Dear Diary,
I'm sitting in bed, and will lay my head down for the day when I'm done writing. This has been a good day.
After the group therapy, I had a one on one talk with my therapist for one and a half hour. It was a good session, and she actually agreed that March 1 is the right day for me to leave the intensive group therapy. I wasn't sure she approved, because I decided the
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Dear Diary,
I'm continuing on my The Simple Life manual. I have to start somewhere to turn my lifestyle and mind simpler and more soulful. Get clear on what I want to fill my life with, and how I want to use my time and energy. It's connected with my deeper values. I'm gonna write them down in my Simple Life manual.
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There once lived a great warrior. Though old in age, he could still not be defeated. His reputation made people come from near and far to be his students.
One day a young warrior came to the village, determined to defeat the great master. The young man had an amazing ability to spot his opponents' weak spots, as soon at they made their first moves. He defeated everyone by going for their weaknesses instantly, and had not been defeated.
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Good morning from this part of the world!
Have a good one, whether it's day or night where you are at.
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Dear Diary,
Today has been a peaceful day for me. I've felt calm, having a pyjamas day. I want to have more of these, because I like them.
For 2-3 months now, I've felt a growing need for a simple life. No, I don't mean EASY, just simple. So what have I done today? Been inspired to write a manual on how to live a simple life, of course. I got the idea last night, as
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Dear Diary,
I'm angry! I've been in group therapy for almost 7 months. 4 1/2 hrs, 3 days a week. An intensive group therapy, for sure. Today one of the therapists asked me if I'm leaving the group March 1 "because my feelings are coming to the surface." WTF! My feelings have been right underneath the surface all my life! She followed up the question with "We haven't really seen much of you here." HUH?! I know she didn't
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Dear Diary,
Since childhood, I've been different than people in my surroundings. Different thoughts, focus and dreams. For instance, I've never dreamt about finding a prince, getting married, having a family, "the white picket fence and a dog", and a well paid job I could brag about, or a luxury car I could show off. That's just not me, and never was. I didn't even have those dreams as a child.
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The first time I saw this video I started crying, and watched it about 10 times in a row. Why? Because it spoke directly to me, or at least that's what I felt it did. I was overwhelmed by thoughts about just accepting that I'm different (which I've struggled with most of my life), and
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Dear Diary,
I just found this note on google, and it really pushed my buttons. I'm grateful for finding this note!
These words really resonated with me, and I feel them. Have experienced them, and still do. Life isn't about being perfect, or always doing the right things.
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The Emperor asked Zen master Gudo, "What happens to a man of enlightenment after death?"
"How should I know?" replied Gudo.
"Because you are a master," answered the Emperor.
"Yes sir," said Gudo, " but not a dead one."
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I love this man.
He is so down-to-Earth, and his insights are tremendeous. I'm in love with his eyes, and his calm presence. One of our time's greatest spiritual teachers. He never "serves" any lofty talks, as many spiritual teachers do. Meet Jaggi Vasudev!
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Dear Diary,Sometimes I don't get this life, and other times I feel I get it all. Why is that? Sometimes I find Life confusing, and at other times I wonder if I am the cause of my confusion? It might be both, you know. I'm not THAT confused, haha! Or, am I..?
Life hands me all this stuff to handle and sort out, and it can be hard to cope with at times. I've been doing my best
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I wanted a design that gives a good overview of the content, and is simple to read, almost like a newspaper. I like this one because it's clean, neat, and it's easy to find everything here. I like!
It's Friday the 13th, and I've been busy doing nothing. Nothing isn't true, I've been writing a lot. Not on any of my books or stories, but thoughts, happenings, and what's been going on inside me of late. I like using
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It's necessary for me to "own" my blog in this way, ao I can change info about med on BL.
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Hei!
Jeg kommer, som jeg har skrevet under ene bildet på bloggen her, til å skrive innlegg både på engelsk og norsk. Alle norske innlegg jeg skriver vil bli å finne under Norsk i ordskyen her.
Tenkte bare jeg ville informere om Norsk-etiketten, før jeg sjekker hva som skjer bak øyelokkene. Zzzz...
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The Prime Minister of the Tang Dynasty was a national hero for his success as both a statesman and military leader. But despite his fame, power and wealth, he considered himself a humble and devout Buddhist. Often he visited his favorite Zen master to study under him, and they seemed to get along very well. That he was prime minister apparantly had no effect on their relationship, which seemed to be one between a revered master and respectful student.
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That's so cool! I'm still "building" my blog. Where it's going, in terms of sharings, only time will tell. I'll write about stuff that is important to me, or in my eye, on my mind, in my heart. After 10 days it's fun that I've had over 1000 visits also.
I get a big smile on my face when I see that I've had visits from many countries just these first 10 days! I'm so happy about that,
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A university professor went to see a famous Zen master to learn about Zen. While the master quietly served tea, the professor talked about Zen. The master poured the visitor's cup to the brim, and then kept pouring as the man kept talking. The professor watched the overflowing cup until he could no longer restrain himself, "It's overfull! No more will go in!" the professor blurted.
"You are like this cup," the master replied, "How can I show you Zen
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I have a great passion for writing, but also for painting. Writing is a part of every week, mostly every day, in my life. Painting is something I embark on in periods. Playing with colors is fun, fills me with joy, is an outlet for all kinds of emotions and moods, and has been very therapeutical for me throughout life.
Being bipolar, a creative outlet is very important to me. I find balance and peace, when my
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During a momentous battle, a Japanese general decided to attack even though his army was greatly outnumbered. He was confident they would win, but his men were filled with doubt. On the way to the battle, they stopped at a religious shrine. After praying with the men, the general took out a coin and said, "I shall now toss this coin. If it is heads, we shall win. If tails, we shall lose. Destiny will now reveal itself."
He
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Hello. I'm Frida, and want to talk about Life for a little bit. A huge topic, of course, but I will share with you what Life looks like from my perspective. In a down-to-Earth, yet symbolic manner.
Many think of Life as a road. Do you? What is your mental image, or symbol of Life? Do
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